Sapphic Sunday:

Dara & Karman’s Hitlist

I used to spend a lot of time at AfterEllen but lately I’ve been a bit more preoccupied and as a result of that I don’t have time to watch more than a few vlog’s at the site.

One of them is Dara & Karman’s Hitlist.

I love the chemistry that’s between these two and my sense of humor is a lot like theirs, so I enjoy watching the vlog.

Here’s their take on “Lesbian Hangouts” (eps. 15)

More Lesbian Entertainment & Video

“Lesbian Sterotypes” (eps. 11)

More Lesbian Entertainment & Video

You can also watch Things Every Lesbian Should Know or how about Girls With Guns or Characters We Wish Were Real or a lot of other episodes (currrently it's 28 episodes).

Enjoy your Sunday.

Sapphic Sunday:

Jill Bennett



She was in a vlog with Karman Kregloe at AfterEllen called We’re Getting Nowhere that began as re-caps of South of Nowhere. The first episode was without Dara Nai (I think Jill Bennett initially filled in for Dara Nai), but she joined them for the next episode. But they also re-capped The L Word, ANT and vlogged about some other things. They had guest appearances by different people like Sarah Warn, Bridget McManus, Liz Feldman, Jane Lynch, Elizabeth Keener and others



She played Andrea in 3way - the hottest lesbian comedy NOT on TV. 3way also stars Maeve Quinlan, Cathy Shim and Maile Flanagan.





She also writes and makes video blogs for SheWired.

If you want more information go to her webpage where you also can see episodes of the webseries We Have To Stop Now with Jill Bennett and Cathy DeBuono or read about the movie And Then Came Lola

And Then Came Lola

And Then Came Lola-Trailer from fastgirlfilms on Vimeo.

Memory Monday – of a sort.

AfterEllen.com Hot 100 2009

Last year I was all new to this site – and furthermore new to the community. And as for the video countdowns – I didn’t know half of the people presenting the hotness of the Hot 100.
But after a whole year of watching vlogs and reading blogs (and not only on AfterEllen.com) I’ve gotten a hold on myself. And it’s kinda nice.

In the beginning I didn’t have a clue on what to do or what to say – or how to say it. Truth be told, I still don’t most of the time, but at least it’s not unfamiliar territory anymore.
Besides the confusion I felt (re-realizing I was gay – and probably more interested in women [if not solely interested in women] than men) it was also very difficult to seize the whole LGBT community at once. Actually I felt like I had moved to a foreign country where I didn’t know the language or the customs. It’s kind of difficult to describe. I guess it was more a question of fitting in. I’ve never quite fit into ‘the straight world’. But because it took me so long to address my ‘identity-problem’ I felt like I had no chance of fitting into ‘the gay world’.

I’m getting there, though.

Also I’m a very shy and very private person (at least in person…) around strangers. It’s usually mistaken for arrogance (and I totally get it because I’ve made the same mistake a few times). So I don’t easily make friends. [Fortunately I don’t blush as often as I did when I was younger. Shy and embarrassed doesn’t make a very good combination.]. But I enjoy my own company. It’s not like I’m antisocial or asocial. I like being around other people. Just not 20 people all the time. Being home is nice too.

Where am I going with this?
I have no idea.

But what I meant to say all along.

The AfterEllen Hot 100 2009 list is up sometime today.

And I’m all kinds of excited about it.
First of all, duh, 100 hot women!
But it’ll be fun to see which 100 hot women made the list this year. From what I read there seems to be a lot of new faces…

Like

Alexandra Hedison (TLW)

Yvonne Strahovski (Chuck)

and

Laura Sanchez (Los Hombres De Paco)

Can't wait!


EDIT: The list is up - and even though 5 of the women I voted for (in all 4 categories, that is) didn't make the list that still makes 20 of my votes on on the list. So I'm good ;o)
Now go check out the Hot 100 of 2009. It's a pretty impressive list!

Sometimes I wonder....

...where the hell I've been living for the past - I don't know - 30-some years?

I went over to eurOut to take the HMDYKAELE quiz - but I didn’t know any of the answers.....except for No. 1, 12 and 13. So I'm not entering that contest...

3 (THREE!!!) answers out of 15!?!?
Really???!?

I mean...REALLY?!?!?!?

Are you even gay???
Erhm...that would be pretty safe to assume, yes, but apparently I've been living in my own world. Like Fantasia (or Randomania)...? At least my info on the LGBTQ community has been rather random - up till I discovered AfterEllen (and now eurOut).
[the fact that I only recently(?) re-discovered my 'gay-ness' could also have something to do with my ignorence....]

So I wait patiently for the rest of the answers to the quiz (the deadline is midnight March 4th - standard European time +1 GMT).

You should give it a try.
The chances of you doing worse than me is non-existent ;o)

I'm sorry....

Sometimes life just gets in the way of...well life.

This monday (while I was finishing my post for Memory Monday) I got a call from my mother. My dad had had an accident at work. She wasn't sure how bad it was, but she couldn't go anywhere because my dad always takes the car to work. So she asked if I could take her. And of course I could.

I will spare you the cruel details, but 'after all' he 'only' injured a finger (the middle finger on his right hand - they were able to put it back on and he get's to keep it), but it still meant that we spend most of the evening at the hospital (My mom and I went home when he went to surgery). The next day we went to get him home.

I haven't been home since Monday and due to that I haven't been able to finish my post on Memory Monday. I haven't given an update on the Beaver Bunch topics for the week, I haven't uploaded tons and tons of random pictures, comic strips and/or videos...
I have postponed Memory Monday till next Monday.
The Beaver Bunch topics... I haven't even had time to see them yet, but I will and if you still haven't saved the url click on the Beaver Bunch logo over to the right.

I am way behind on everything this week:
YouTube (and The L Word)
AfterEllen (recaps, B.J. Fletcher and This Just Out, articles)
eurOut
MySpace
Twitter

Not to mention that I got a new carpet in my livingroom this weekend and I haven't been home to put the furniture back in place. Most of them are too heavy for one person to carry alone (my dad was supposed to help me but maybe I can get my brother-in-law to help).

But now that everything is back to normal hopefully I'll catch up on everything.
How was your week so far?

Goodbye 2008 HELLO 2009

It has been a year of many great and not so great things. As always. But this year was special for me.
This year I finally came to terms with myself - with my sexuality. And I told my family (parents, sister, brother-in-law) - pretty big steps for a girl who wouldn't admit it to herself for years. The rest of my family doesn’t know (or at least I haven't told them yet).
Like I've written before - I realized that I had never been in love with a man - only women (and girls - when I was younger). And although I have yet to experience the physical part of being with a woman - I know that it's for me. I've never really enjoyed being with a man (physically) - but it felt like that was expected. "Get a boyfriend, get married, have 2,5 kids". So I did - got a boyfriend (but not until I was 19). I even got married (at 24 - and divorced at 25. No kids though). And it turned out it was all in my head. When I came out to my parents, my dad said: "I don't care who you are dating. As long as you are happy!"
Some might say that it was about time I figured it out - but I guess I've always known that I was attracted to women. Just never admitted it.
If I have to label myself, I guess I would have to go with 'bisexual' for now. But I prefer the term 'gay'. I think it's more fluent.

I discovered "The L Word" (all 5 seasons), "Loving Annabelle" and "Imagine Me And You" among other movies/series this year.

Further more 2008 was the year I got to 'know' a whole bunch of people on YouTube, AfterEllen, Blogger/Blogspot, MySpace, Twitter, Facebook... Well on the Internet.
And I think they are part of the reason I finally came out - both to myself but also to my nearest family. Not that I thought there was anything wrong with being gay - but still. In the words of a much 'hated' singer this year: "That's not what good girls do". Guess what? They do!

And as for my resolutions this year... I actually first decided not to have any. Mainly because I tend to break them. But thinking about what I would do different next year I ended up with:

1. Not 'play' straigt every single time a cute girl talks to me (for some really odd reason I always have to bring up 'my ex-husband'. Why do I do that?)
   
   
2. Go for it! (I tend to be uber careful about almost everything. It's time to loosen up a bit. And jump into things.)
   
   
3. Maybe I'll watch some Battlestar Galactica and listen to Tegan and Sara - just to see what all the fuzz is about ;o)
   
   

Who knows? 2009 might just be my year.

So all that's left to say is:

I hope you all have a Happy New Year



...And I hope you don't feel all too or .....

See you next year.

Ten People (or so) I'd Like To Meet:

As so many before me, I wanted to make a list of some people I'd like to meet. But my problem is, that there are so many people I have come to 'know' this year, that I don't event know where to begin!!!

Well actually I tried to make a list, but every time I felt like ‘I’m done’ more names kept popping up in my head. So I just kept writing…. After a long, long, long, long time of trying to narrow it down I ended up with this.

In random order (is there any other way to do this?):

The Beaver Bunch (Michelle, Lori, AJ, Jess, Lu/Laura, Kade)
Bridget McManus (and hopefully Karman Kregloe will be there as well)
Dara Nai
Sarah Warn (and Lori Grant)
Jill Bennett
Erin Kelly
Rachel Maddow
Meghan Tonjes (That girl can sing!. Her Collab Project Lifesize's Channel on YouTube.)
Rachel Shelley
5awesomegays

And those who almost made the list (well they are on my I'd like to meet-list but I had to narrow it down, right?):
Katherine Brooks/Diane Gaidry
The cast from 3way/Liz Feldman, Raimy Rosenduft/BJ Fletcher, George Drew, Jenna Watson (should I know their real names?)/StuntDouble/Dorothy Snarker/....pretty much everybody at AfterEllen.com (How to choose?)
Jill Hanner (xgobobeanx)
Michael Buckley (Yeah he's on YouTube too)
A whole bunch of other YouTube'rs (I know I've mentioned some, but there are more, so many more I'd like to meet. Like DatAintRight, azrienoch, katlitter, misscupcake1, imaJENtleman, caughtnbetween, projectblogsphere, GeneticBlend and many, many, many more.....)


Why do I find it so difficult finding people (I want to meet) that are not connected to either YouTube or AfterEllen? Sometimes I think I have more contact with my ‘Internet-family’ than my real family….
Jeeze I got to get a life….

Maybe I should make at list of people I'd like to hang out with...?
Or maybe I should just go hang out with some real people - and stop making lists about every thing ;o)
Except maybe my 100 things to do before I turn 40-list... :o)

I know. I know! I have to stop obsessing about the L Word...

But I JUST HAVE TO share this with you.

If you like LOVE The L Word...
If you are obsessed with are on Facebook..
If you can't get enough of AfterEllen and their amazing writers (in this case the talented stuntdouble.)

THEN you HAVE to watch this.

I was litterally LOL and ROFLMAO. SOOOOOO funny!!!

Sorry... Couldn't resist...

Now I like The L Word...
And I like AfterEllen....
And I like Dorothy Snarker's comments...
I'm actually not that into fashion - but I do pay attention sometimes...

So what do you get if you put them all together:

One FUNNY lady talking about The L Word - and fashion crime - on her AfterEllen blog...

This made me laugh. Out loud. Several times.
(Especially the Kit and Shane comments...)

Now I know it's not a new post - but it's still funny. And it has some great pictures.

Enjoy!

Bridget McManus and Karman Kregloe.

In the words of Liz Feldman:

This Just Out:

http://www.afterellen.com/people/2008/11/celebrating-lesbian-marriage?page=0%2C6

Please be sure to read the intire article. I only posted the last page because it was the one who was most surprising. (At least to me. But definitely not in a bad way). At first I thought it was a stunt, but now I'm not so sure.

18,000 gay and lesbian couples were married in California during the six months it was legal, before the passage of Prop 8.

AfterEllen posted pictures of some of the happy couples.

Congratulations to all of you.

Obama wins - gays lose... All in one day.

Even though it's a big, big, big YAY to Obamas election, something clouded the joy.

I will qoute what Sarah Warn wrote on her blog on AfterEllen.com:
"American gay rights were delivered a blow tonight, as propositions and amendments that deny or prevent the legalization of same-sex marriage were approved in Arizona and Florida, and marriage rights were actually taken away in California. Arkansas also made it illegal for gay couples to adopt..."

(Here's the whole piece: http://www.afterellen.com/blog/sarahwarn/election-08-results)

Suddenly I'm quite satisfied to live where I live.
Here gays can registrer as partners (much like the marriage at the city hall). It has been legal since 1989. Gays can adopt. Single women (sexual orientation not an issue) can get help to get pregnant.

So why is it, that America isn't ready for that?
I thought that America was supposed to be a rolemodel. A Supernation. Something to be proud of. What happend to: All men are created equal?

I just hope for you that Obama really can make a change.

WTF ABC....?

I have been following Greys Anatomy (mainly on YouTube - since we are not so far in the show in my homecountry) and the evolving of Callie and Ericas relasionship...
But the I suddenly sees an article on AfterEllen.
ABC fired Brooke Smith - who plays Erica Hahn.
And the reason? Well, you better read it for yourself:

http://www.afterellen.com/TV/2008/10/greys-fires-brooke-smith

http://www.afterellen.com/blog/sarahwarn/greys-firing-updates-11-05-08

And apparently it was a surprise to others from the cast as well. Here's what Patrick Dempsey said on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show":

http://www.etonline.com/news/2008/11/67346/

All I have to add:

WTF ABC...?

Bridget McManus

I just love her. She makes me cry - with laughter of course.
She's soooo funny. And it's not exactly a bad thing that she's cute (and hot!) too.
By the way. I would kill to have hair like that. It looks so soft and... Better not get started on that.
I can't quite remember if it was on AfterEllen.com or on YouTube I first saw her... Anyway. I guess that's not important. What is important is that I just can't seem to get enough of her. I have seen "Brunch with Bridget" so many times (going through the episodes one by one. Over and over again. Allthough I have my personal favorites).
And once again I thank you-know-who (and no it's not Voldemort) for YouTube.
Since I'm not an American, I haven't got the pleasure of seeing Miss McManus live so I turn to the second best. Lots and lots of videos!!!

I love comedy - especially when it's Bridget.
I heart Bridget!

What can I say...

I guess I have to tell something about me...
Hmm...

Thinking...
Just thinking......

All right! I'm totally addicted to YouTube!!!!

I mean... All those videos.... And sooo little time.

Like... When I first discovered "Loving Annabelle" (and I sure do..), it was amazing to find deleted scenes that wasn't on the DVD (and even if "evolotionseeker" is the same as Katherine Brooks, it doesn't make it worse - she's amazing too - love, love, love that movie!). Just clips really - but hey, if you throw those addicted fans (like me) a bone... Well.. We kind af live for those moments (at least I do). I just can't get enough.


The same goes for the videos about the Callica-angle in "Grey's Anatomy".
I guess you'd be seeing a kind of a pattern here... And I admit to that too - all lesbian in movies and TV-series... I'm for it. Surprise!!!
The biggest problem about Grey's Anatomy is that I can't see it - unless when it has been posted on YouTube (so Hester aka BetweenThaLines - I'm forever gratefull).

Besides the occasionally movie or series for, with and about lesbians - there's the Internet. Thank you-know-who for AE (AfterEllen.com).
So far it has totally covered my needs as to updates in the "community" but then agian - I haven't been out there for that long. Don't think I'll be needing anyone bigger than AE though. It's got a bit about - and for - everyone. Amazing actually. Recommendable.