Hot blondes... Anyone?

I've been on a Quest. A mission.
I've had a really hard time trying to find any blonde women I actually think is hot beyond words.
Well it's not entirely true...
I find Charlize Theron extremely hot. Like all-round hot (as in hot no matter what she acts/does). And hey, wouldn't you?
But she's it?!?
It's not that I can't think of any blondes. I just don't find them as attractive as I find brunettes (or red haired). Well maybe Diane Gaidry, and Erin Kelly (I have only seen her with dark hair, but apparently she's a 'natural blonde' - and I just went totally 'Loving Annabelle' again...).
But then I searched my computer (and Google the Internet) for pictures, and it hit me:
What was I thinking?

Both Kate Winslet

and Keira Knightley

could definitely rock my...erhm...world!

So point proven (?!?).
I like women - regardless of their hair color ;o)

Ten People (or so) I'd Like To Meet:

As so many before me, I wanted to make a list of some people I'd like to meet. But my problem is, that there are so many people I have come to 'know' this year, that I don't event know where to begin!!!

Well actually I tried to make a list, but every time I felt like ‘I’m done’ more names kept popping up in my head. So I just kept writing…. After a long, long, long, long time of trying to narrow it down I ended up with this.

In random order (is there any other way to do this?):

The Beaver Bunch (Michelle, Lori, AJ, Jess, Lu/Laura, Kade)
Bridget McManus (and hopefully Karman Kregloe will be there as well)
Dara Nai
Sarah Warn (and Lori Grant)
Jill Bennett
Erin Kelly
Rachel Maddow
Meghan Tonjes (That girl can sing!. Her Collab Project Lifesize's Channel on YouTube.)
Rachel Shelley
5awesomegays

And those who almost made the list (well they are on my I'd like to meet-list but I had to narrow it down, right?):
Katherine Brooks/Diane Gaidry
The cast from 3way/Liz Feldman, Raimy Rosenduft/BJ Fletcher, George Drew, Jenna Watson (should I know their real names?)/StuntDouble/Dorothy Snarker/....pretty much everybody at AfterEllen.com (How to choose?)
Jill Hanner (xgobobeanx)
Michael Buckley (Yeah he's on YouTube too)
A whole bunch of other YouTube'rs (I know I've mentioned some, but there are more, so many more I'd like to meet. Like DatAintRight, azrienoch, katlitter, misscupcake1, imaJENtleman, caughtnbetween, projectblogsphere, GeneticBlend and many, many, many more.....)


Why do I find it so difficult finding people (I want to meet) that are not connected to either YouTube or AfterEllen? Sometimes I think I have more contact with my ‘Internet-family’ than my real family….
Jeeze I got to get a life….

Maybe I should make at list of people I'd like to hang out with...?
Or maybe I should just go hang out with some real people - and stop making lists about every thing ;o)
Except maybe my 100 things to do before I turn 40-list... :o)

Loving Annabelle... and me

I love "Loving Annabelle." And I was obsessed with it, when I got the DVD. I saw it EVERY DAY. Actually I saw at least once every day the first week – or two. Eventually I just skipped to the good parts (and refused to watch the ending - I'm over that now...)
Why was I so obsessed you might ask (well I suppose you don't - that would involve reading this post - but I asked myself then)?

1. Erin Kelly is hot! Duh!
2. Diane Gaidry is hot (and I'm not usually into blondes! Except for my first serious crush...)!
3. Several hot scenes!

4. I could relate to the story.
Not the boarding school-story.
Not the ‘I am a rebellion teenager’-story. (Well maybe just a bit…)
Certainly to the ‘I have a huge crush on my hot teacher’-story (Oh yeah..).
But I think my main obsession was with Simone’s story. Not the ‘I have a crush on my way younger student’ part of the story but her realization of her own desires – the ones who involve women. When she realizes that she’s allowed to be herself. That she’s allowed to be happy.
I WAS Simone in that story. All the way down to the very, very, very bad sex with the boyfriend. The look on her face during that scene (and it was brilliant acting. Brilliant!). It just… That was how I felt.
Now you might ask (or I did) why were you with a guy in the first place? Well I was not just ‘with him’. We actually were married… Not the happiest time of my life. What can I say? I did what I thought was expected of me – being a good girl and all. Well it’s a long story – a longer story than that. Maybe I’ll write more about that later…
Back to Simone… Or me…
I went through a journey much similar to Simone's.
From vague realization to denial to really big eye opener. And in between lots of major or minor crushes. But not recognized as such. More like: She looks hot - maybe I just want to own her clothes...? Or She's really cute - maybe I just want her as my friend...? Nah. Who was I kidding?

Anyway. I guess that was why I was obsessed this particular movie.

On a sidenote my first obsession with a gaymovie was with "Imagine Me And You". If you look beside the coming out story (and the hot women) it has a bit of denial and realization in it. Again. Relating! And obsession!