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Stockholm Pride made a Twitter Quiz. By entering your Twitter account name it will sort out how hetero you are.

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A Gaythering Storm

A great new spoof of The Gathering Storm from Funny or Die, with an all star cast including Sarah Chalke, Jason Lewis, Lynne Stewart, Alicia Silverstone, Lance Bass, Liz Feldman, Sophia Bush, Drew Droege, Mike Hitchcock, Daniele Gathier, Jay Lay, Erin Foley, George Takei and Jane Lynch.
Written by Liz Feldman and Mike Rose

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Fagget Fairys:

I’m not trying to be rude or anything.

It’s the name of a Danish group.



Which I just discovered *blushes*(. I should be more up to speed on these things. But I’m terrible at keeping myself updated on anything within the gay community. [I blame the fact that I’m ‘new at this’ – and by ‘this’ I mean (acting on) being gay.])

Anyway.

These two girls (who are partners at work as well as private) have been making music [] since 2007. And I guess it’s the kind of music that you either hate or love. And given my taste in music you probably shouldn’t take my advice, but I’m leaning towards love. ;o)

This is how they describe themselves: Fagget Fairys are an explosive cocktail of Islam, lesbianism, true love, and relentless beats.



This is one of their songs. It’s called “Feed the Horse”.

With that in mind... Enjoy:




Given both the song and the music video I had some idea of what the title meant, but (just in case I was way off) I looked it up…

Moving on:

For more information visit their MySpace.

Sometimes I wonder....

...where the hell I've been living for the past - I don't know - 30-some years?

I went over to eurOut to take the HMDYKAELE quiz - but I didn’t know any of the answers.....except for No. 1, 12 and 13. So I'm not entering that contest...

3 (THREE!!!) answers out of 15!?!?
Really???!?

I mean...REALLY?!?!?!?

Are you even gay???
Erhm...that would be pretty safe to assume, yes, but apparently I've been living in my own world. Like Fantasia (or Randomania)...? At least my info on the LGBTQ community has been rather random - up till I discovered AfterEllen (and now eurOut).
[the fact that I only recently(?) re-discovered my 'gay-ness' could also have something to do with my ignorence....]

So I wait patiently for the rest of the answers to the quiz (the deadline is midnight March 4th - standard European time +1 GMT).

You should give it a try.
The chances of you doing worse than me is non-existent ;o)

Memory Monday.

Growing up I listened to a lot of different music. In the early years it was mostly ABBA, The Mamas & the Papas or The Carpenters (and I still know their songs by heart...).

I was a very - moody is probably not the best word to describe myself, but for now it has to do - teenager. All the music I listened to reflected my mood. And for some reason I was never quite happy in my teens...

The Cranberries
"Zombie" and "Linger" were my favorites


4 Non Blondes
"What's Up?"


Laura Branigan
I still listen to "Self-Control".

The Danish band Infernal made a cover of the song (a pretty good one).

Limahl
"Never Ending Story" is one of my all time favorite songs - but I'm sure that's connected with the movie....


Queen
"Bohemian Rhapsody" is to me one of the most beautiful songs in the world, but I like most of Queen's songs.


Wham
I know they made a lot of great songs, but the one people always seem to remember is "Last Christmas".


Sinead O’Connor
"Nothing Compares 2 U" is a given, but "Sacrifies" is brilliant as well (Elton John wrote it)

To be on not to be - in therapy

I’M GAY!!!!

Well by now it isn’t the big surprise, but I just found out, that I probably have been gay all my life. I had settled for bisexual (leaning towards women) a few years back (and finally came out to my family last year), but I never went along with the whole gay thing….

Recently (as in little over a week ago) I got a new carpet for my living room (no, that’s not the gay part…) and I had to move all my furniture out. One of the things I had to move was this cupboard/closet thing and I found my old diary. Back from when I was around 12 or 13.(Maybe I should add that I recently had picked it up at my parents place but not had had the time to go through it yet).
Anyway. I have previously mentioned my huge (gigantic) crush on my English-teacher. This was the evidence… As I read the pages I felt the butterflies again, but all of a sudden I came to some pages about something that I had totally forgotten. At least some of it - well most of it. (I think the word is repression).
Apparently (and now I’m just guessing – it was not written in my diary) my crush led to the fact that my school thought I needed to see the school therapist (or counselor or what ever you call it)!?! So I did. And after a few weeks of therapy I did indeed need to see a therapist!

We talked about school in general. Then we talked about my family (that didn’t go exactly like she planned – I come from a very functional family). And eventually we got to the BIG PROBLEM.

My English-teacher. Or rather my crush on her.

Let’s call her Simone (just for the fun of it – in honor of another hot teacher).
“Simone’s afraid, that you might have fallen in love with her.” It was not a question. And it didn’t sound like it was okay. It sounded more like it was punishable by death. So of course I responded: “No. No! I’m not!” And at the same time it felt like a bucket of ice cold water had been thrown at my face. My therapist could not have helped but notice that I was lying but she smiled and said: “Then all is good.” As I wrote in my diary: “I don’t even remember how I got through the rest of the session” (which was the final one)...and “My life is ruined”.
The next day I wrote in my diary: “Maybe it’s time to start liking boys.” Followed by a drawing of a sad face.

Maybe the fact that I never really got past the first date with most boys should have been an indicator? And that it wasn’t till I met the guy that's now my ex-husband (thank G_d) I ever slept with any (guy). And that fact that I never really enjoyed it anyway… Don’t worry I won’t go into details. I’ll just leave it at this. But…
I guess I’ve always felt like something was missing in my life. And admitting to myself that guys just don’t do it for me… It was a pretty big step. But admitting it to my family was probably the most rewarding thing I’ve ever done. It sounds weird I know, but hear me out.
It felt soooo liberating to say it out loud. And it sort of made it more real. Not that I wasn’t sure before I told them, but I think the whole fear of them reacting like it was a bad thing kind of held me back.

It was a bit weird realizing that I've actually seen myself as gay when I was 12/13 (maybe not in as many words). Think of all the time I have wasted convincing myself that I should like boys and feeling all different and wrong because it never really worked. Damn that therapist!

Additional lesson learned: Go through your old stuff on a regular basis. You never know if you find some old piece of information that could have been useful a decade or two ago.

Goodbye 2008 HELLO 2009

It has been a year of many great and not so great things. As always. But this year was special for me.
This year I finally came to terms with myself - with my sexuality. And I told my family (parents, sister, brother-in-law) - pretty big steps for a girl who wouldn't admit it to herself for years. The rest of my family doesn’t know (or at least I haven't told them yet).
Like I've written before - I realized that I had never been in love with a man - only women (and girls - when I was younger). And although I have yet to experience the physical part of being with a woman - I know that it's for me. I've never really enjoyed being with a man (physically) - but it felt like that was expected. "Get a boyfriend, get married, have 2,5 kids". So I did - got a boyfriend (but not until I was 19). I even got married (at 24 - and divorced at 25. No kids though). And it turned out it was all in my head. When I came out to my parents, my dad said: "I don't care who you are dating. As long as you are happy!"
Some might say that it was about time I figured it out - but I guess I've always known that I was attracted to women. Just never admitted it.
If I have to label myself, I guess I would have to go with 'bisexual' for now. But I prefer the term 'gay'. I think it's more fluent.

I discovered "The L Word" (all 5 seasons), "Loving Annabelle" and "Imagine Me And You" among other movies/series this year.

Further more 2008 was the year I got to 'know' a whole bunch of people on YouTube, AfterEllen, Blogger/Blogspot, MySpace, Twitter, Facebook... Well on the Internet.
And I think they are part of the reason I finally came out - both to myself but also to my nearest family. Not that I thought there was anything wrong with being gay - but still. In the words of a much 'hated' singer this year: "That's not what good girls do". Guess what? They do!

And as for my resolutions this year... I actually first decided not to have any. Mainly because I tend to break them. But thinking about what I would do different next year I ended up with:

1. Not 'play' straigt every single time a cute girl talks to me (for some really odd reason I always have to bring up 'my ex-husband'. Why do I do that?)
   
   
2. Go for it! (I tend to be uber careful about almost everything. It's time to loosen up a bit. And jump into things.)
   
   
3. Maybe I'll watch some Battlestar Galactica and listen to Tegan and Sara - just to see what all the fuzz is about ;o)
   
   

Who knows? 2009 might just be my year.

So all that's left to say is:

I hope you all have a Happy New Year



...And I hope you don't feel all too or .....

See you next year.

What Type of Lesbian Are You? (Inspired by Curve Mag.)

So I took this quiz called: What Type of Lesbian Are You? (Inspired by Curve Mag.).


And weirdly enough I thought it was spot on.

The full result is somewhere on my blog 444444444444 overthere...

"You Scored as The Surprise! Dyke
Despite the dead giveaways, such as the tattoos and love of the L Word, people still seem to think that you're straight."


I do have tattoos. (Just two - but still...)
I own a motorcyle.
I love the L Word (and Loving Annabelle, Imagine Me and You, etc.).
I'm addicted to AfterEllen.
I have 'gay hands' ;-)

But somehow people still don't know I'm gay. Why is that?

Day Without a Gay

Tomorrow (Dec. 10th) it's "Day Without a Gay" in the U.S. It's a respons to the "Yes" on Prop. 8. (So it's the first "Day Witout a Gay" ever).
What you are supposed to do is "...to call in Gay...". Like when you call in sick - only tomorrow you call in gay. Or - if you don't want to do that (for random reasons) - just don't buy anything.
It's an effort to show (the U.S.) government that the gay contribute to the economy - big time.

This is a video created by the Jennifer Vanasco and John Polly, the editors of 365gay.com and NewNowNext.com, to show how tomorrow might be like.

Gay music and video from NewNowNext.com